The Worse Day, not to mention The Worse Week ever..

Today, I've met a psycho, rude not to mention stupid parent ever... She summoned me this morning with a pair of soooo inappropriate clothes to wear around my workplace.... I greeted her 'assalamualaikum' [as what most muslims would do] politely instead of replying, she just snapped at me asking whether I ever punished her 'bastard' child... Of course I did but I did it for reasons... Errgh~~ dahlaa nda pandai, daydreamer and a cheater.. Berani ya complain to her mother I punished her, c'mon~~~ most teachers would do the same thing... Baru aku ngajar, balum lagi malaikat mengajar...!! I told her anaknya kuat angan - angan, meniru, inda pandai membaca... And she is soooooooo friggin' stupid, she asked me balek angan - angan cemana.... Banyak jenis kah angan - angan ani..????? Setau ku, that is what it is, angan - angan.... And the mother ani pun 1 jua... She knew her child has this behavior problem [which is reluctant to go to school] since preschool but she never act anything about it...not until today... Mentang - mentang aku cemani, pikirnya aku inda berani kali melawan... So, ya kasar, I replied her kasar lah jua... Thank GOD, I managed to hold my temper... If aku nda tepikir kan my reputation as a teacher, it'll be her worse day ever.. What's her point telling me ya pemanas, pemarah..?? What..? Does that meant to scare me...? D'uh~~ Then the psycho thing she said to me, '...jangan pulang kita salah hati, inda pulang ku marah kita mendenda anak ku.. Namanya untuk pandai...' Ain't that a psycho...? One minute, she marah me about punishing her child, the next minute inda tia marah.. Buduh... buduh~~ And she said she has to 'bribe' her child just to go to school.. She said duit belanja $2 - $3 everyday, minta atu minta ani dibalikan.. D'uhh~ that ain't my problem.. Cubatah betanya bisai - bisai... Patut tah anaknya kurang ajar, mamanya pun cematu.. Like mother, like daughther...

And people~~ bribing ur child to go to school is NOT a good parenting.. At least, go on and pujuk her psychologically.. Bukan bribing pakai barang or money.. That is what we called SPOILED..!!!!! She even threaten me to stop her child's education if this thing keeps on happening... GO AHEAD~~ I even welcome her to do so... Inda nyusahkan teachers di Brunei ani mengajar anaknya... Seriously, starting from today, I won't give a damn about the kid no more.. Ya pandai, inda pandai, buat her task kah inda.. I don't care... Kacau saja my teaching performance because of her..

Million thanks to ALLAH, my parent teach me to think wisely and not to become the person like that woman in the future... And I'll make sure I'll educate my children not to be like that bastard child.. Errgh~~ It still got into me......

After I cool off, then straight away, I lecture the rest of my pupils.. Pebaik masih damit, better ajar awal - awal before its too late, right...?

....and that is cracking the whole of me.....

You're still treat me unfairly. You said you won't do it again but still. You act like nothing happen. Stop saying you love me, you care about me, you missed me or whatever the crap is coz I don't wanna hear it.

Yea, and now I know everything about you, your love, your care, your tears are just a PLAIN LIE...!!!! is it hard to be honest...? And I realize I can easily be forgotten over things.

Maybe I'll just back off and get out from your precious life. With or without me, it doesn't make any different to you....

The Return.....~~~~

Holaa, wow~~ it's been ages I didn't update anything... I've got truckloads here to share and damn.... I don't know where to begin.

So, yeah, it's 2010... I know, I know... We're already in the fourth month of 2010. Time really flies by.... This year, my carrier life is a bit D-U-L-L and not to mention e-x-h-a-u-s-t-i-n-g.. Workshops here and there, piles of paperwork and exercises, extra curricular activities, events and so much more.. It's really crazy.. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand my health is pretty unstable lately due to lack of sleep and unmanageable sleeping hours.. Huh~~~ I really missed studying now....

Anyway, the 'Cat' is still around and need to be tamed at ALL TIME... The 'Kittens' by the way, especially 'Blackey' are trying to get on top, stepping on the heads of the poor people who do all the work but never been appreciated... She is not more than an angel with a dirty face... I can't believe I have to face her in 2 major events... One down another to go..

The 'Cat' on the other hand, Uh...~ I don't know how to explain.. I guess due to aging factors, she is like a robot that need to reprogram... She's nagging about the same thing every moment, pushing us like we have all the time in world, acting like she have all the power to rule the world... She is a DICTATOR...!!!!!! Arrrrgh....~

....Untitled....

I'm just a HUMAN...
Human make MISTAKES...
All I can say is how SORRY I am for what I did to you..
If I have the power to UNDO everything, I WOULD..
But, I CAN'T.....
You never know how GUILTY I feel and sometimes I can't imagine living my life with this feeling everyday...
It's KILLING me...
I know you're gonna find out sooner or later..
I just don't have a GUT to tell you honestly...
I guess that makes me a COWARD...
I hope you will forgive me and I won't STOP you from HATING me because I DESERVE it and I really mean it..

Just a random stupid facts...

Totally bored just now.. So I browsed on some sites of whatever comes to mind and I've found this funny websites that says something about stupid random facts.. It says that these facts are just stupid but you still wanna know about it.. haha, well.. I have to agree on that one coz my curiosity kills me sometimes.. So, here it goes:

1. A pack-a-day smoker will lose approximately 2 teeth every 10 yrs. [There will be less smokers if this fact is true..]

2. 40,000 Americans are injured by toilets each year. [ That's because America has the largest 'obessed' population.. that explains why their toilet can't hold their weight.. haha]

3. Most of us have eaten a spider in our sleep.

4. On average, 100 people choke to death on ballpoint pens every year. [I wonder why they put it in their mouth..?]

5. It is physically impossible for a pig to look up into the sky. [hahaha, and their orgasm lasts for 30 minutes.. anybody wants to be a PIG..??]

6.Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin. [yuuuuuckkk...~~~]

7. Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.[There will be an increase of retard populations in the world as a result of the bangings..]

8. The hammer throw is illegal as a high school sport in all states except Rhode Island. [How I wish it is LEGAL here so that I can throw it to that Miss Piggy..!!!]

9. There are more telephones than people in Washington DC..[.. and also in my country.. most people have an average of 3 cellphones for a single user..]

10. Melting an ice cube in your mouth burns 3 calories.

It's all about ART......

I can't describe how much I love art.. For me art is the deepest description of someone's feelings, emotions and also interests. Anyway, since this post is all about art, I wanna share my interests with you guys. I admit that I CAN paint/draw/sketch but I'm still SUCKS at it.. TEHEEE~~~~~~ you wanna see the suckiness of my ART WORK?.. There you go:

~ This is one of my assignment during my 5th semester in college. SUCKS right? hahaha, told ya.. I'm an amateur...[color material: acrylic]



~ Another assignment for my art class.. And it has no title. I think I'm gonna name it 'A piece of SHIT'... [Color material: acrylic]



~ This one I made back when I think the WORLD REBELS AGAINST ME.. Oh, my... what a sucky piece of shit...[color material: colour papers for the collage around the painting and acrylic colors: the cheap one]



~ This one I made back when somebody ask me to draw a batik design for her and this is what really came out from my SMALL BRAIN... [color material: colour pencils and black permanent marker pen..]



~ My lecturer asked to choose a painting from any artists around the world and imitate the drawing and I choose this guy EDVARD MUNCH.. Sorry dude I ruined your masterpiece.. I think I'm gonna rename it 'The Masterpiece of S -H-I-T'... [Color material: poster colour]

- FIN-

A true confession about ........

Everybody have secrets and I'm pretty sure about it.. It might be good or bad kinda secret.. What I'm saying is there are moments that you hate somebody that it might actually triggers your killer instincts but you can;t let it out due to circumstances.. Well, I admit that I've been through that moment and honestly, sometimes I think I'm a retard.. Haha, sounds crazy arr... Anyway, straight to the point, I have a confession to make...

Honestly, I H-A-T-E my dad.. I know I don't have the right to hate him but I can't help it.. He makes my 'already broken' family turns to ashes... He broke my mom's heart. He lie all the time that makes me lost respect towards him.. All these years, we've been pretending to be a happy family and I'm not sure that I can do it anymore.. Rumors by rumours, stories by stories smacking our ears and it is so fuckin' HURT.... and we feel so ASHAMED to call him our dad... I really hope that he's awaken by his own mistakes and feelin' regret in all his FAKE life... I really hope that his mistakes will haunt him down.. We're better off without him... Thanks for your fake concern, thanks for your fake LOVE and thanks for hurting us all these years..

-I know hating him makes me a huge sinner but WHAT THE HECK~~~ he made me do it-