I just wanna share this to the reader...

whatever we have is not really ours. It belongs to Allaah.

*Take a look around you; everything you see, all that you have and all that there is….in you, on you, around you….belongs to Allaah, alone.
It is Allah Who has given you all the property and goods you possess, and that He is the true Owner of them all.

So the cars that you own, the houses that you live in, the businesses you possess all truly belong to Allaah

The kids that He blessed you with, the health that He gave you, the time that He has allowed you are all Allah's property.
Even the bodies we live in and the life that we have belongs to Allaah alone.

*"And to Allah belongs the inheritance of the heavens and the earth…." (Surah Aal-Imraan:180)

"The kingdom of the heavens and the earth and everything in them belongs to Allah. He has power over all things." ( Surat al-Ma'ida: 120)

'Say: 'To Allah belongs the East and the West…' (Surah al-Baqarah:142)

*Now, since everything belongs to Allaah, then we have to include even our souls in that list..

The very souls that we think of as our "self"; our "nafs"; our "being" -- whatever you want to call it -- that very thing that distinguishes you from the rest of the world, belongs to Allaah. It's not YOURS.

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In fact, YOU are not YOURS.
You belong to Allaah.

Holidaayyy~~~

Yehaaa~~ the D-DAYS begin today.... Teachers and students are all excited and that includes me...

I gotta find at least a thing to do for the holiday... No, 'a' thing won't be enough for 17 days.. hmm~~ I hope I won't be rotten in this 2 and a half weeks holiday..

Whatever it is, TEACHERS, have fun...!!! We've been through hectic weeks, never ending pressures along the months yet we've managed to deal with everything... So, may these 17 days worth all the efforts...

*May force be with you in this term holiday*

I wonder why people can be so hypocrite...

The Worse Day, not to mention The Worse Week ever..

Today, I've met a psycho, rude not to mention stupid parent ever... She summoned me this morning with a pair of soooo inappropriate clothes to wear around my workplace.... I greeted her 'assalamualaikum' [as what most muslims would do] politely instead of replying, she just snapped at me asking whether I ever punished her 'bastard' child... Of course I did but I did it for reasons... Errgh~~ dahlaa nda pandai, daydreamer and a cheater.. Berani ya complain to her mother I punished her, c'mon~~~ most teachers would do the same thing... Baru aku ngajar, balum lagi malaikat mengajar...!! I told her anaknya kuat angan - angan, meniru, inda pandai membaca... And she is soooooooo friggin' stupid, she asked me balek angan - angan cemana.... Banyak jenis kah angan - angan ani..????? Setau ku, that is what it is, angan - angan.... And the mother ani pun 1 jua... She knew her child has this behavior problem [which is reluctant to go to school] since preschool but she never act anything about it...not until today... Mentang - mentang aku cemani, pikirnya aku inda berani kali melawan... So, ya kasar, I replied her kasar lah jua... Thank GOD, I managed to hold my temper... If aku nda tepikir kan my reputation as a teacher, it'll be her worse day ever.. What's her point telling me ya pemanas, pemarah..?? What..? Does that meant to scare me...? D'uh~~ Then the psycho thing she said to me, '...jangan pulang kita salah hati, inda pulang ku marah kita mendenda anak ku.. Namanya untuk pandai...' Ain't that a psycho...? One minute, she marah me about punishing her child, the next minute inda tia marah.. Buduh... buduh~~ And she said she has to 'bribe' her child just to go to school.. She said duit belanja $2 - $3 everyday, minta atu minta ani dibalikan.. D'uhh~ that ain't my problem.. Cubatah betanya bisai - bisai... Patut tah anaknya kurang ajar, mamanya pun cematu.. Like mother, like daughther...

And people~~ bribing ur child to go to school is NOT a good parenting.. At least, go on and pujuk her psychologically.. Bukan bribing pakai barang or money.. That is what we called SPOILED..!!!!! She even threaten me to stop her child's education if this thing keeps on happening... GO AHEAD~~ I even welcome her to do so... Inda nyusahkan teachers di Brunei ani mengajar anaknya... Seriously, starting from today, I won't give a damn about the kid no more.. Ya pandai, inda pandai, buat her task kah inda.. I don't care... Kacau saja my teaching performance because of her..

Million thanks to ALLAH, my parent teach me to think wisely and not to become the person like that woman in the future... And I'll make sure I'll educate my children not to be like that bastard child.. Errgh~~ It still got into me......

After I cool off, then straight away, I lecture the rest of my pupils.. Pebaik masih damit, better ajar awal - awal before its too late, right...?

....and that is cracking the whole of me.....

You're still treat me unfairly. You said you won't do it again but still. You act like nothing happen. Stop saying you love me, you care about me, you missed me or whatever the crap is coz I don't wanna hear it.

Yea, and now I know everything about you, your love, your care, your tears are just a PLAIN LIE...!!!! is it hard to be honest...? And I realize I can easily be forgotten over things.

Maybe I'll just back off and get out from your precious life. With or without me, it doesn't make any different to you....

The Return.....~~~~

Holaa, wow~~ it's been ages I didn't update anything... I've got truckloads here to share and damn.... I don't know where to begin.

So, yeah, it's 2010... I know, I know... We're already in the fourth month of 2010. Time really flies by.... This year, my carrier life is a bit D-U-L-L and not to mention e-x-h-a-u-s-t-i-n-g.. Workshops here and there, piles of paperwork and exercises, extra curricular activities, events and so much more.. It's really crazy.. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand my health is pretty unstable lately due to lack of sleep and unmanageable sleeping hours.. Huh~~~ I really missed studying now....

Anyway, the 'Cat' is still around and need to be tamed at ALL TIME... The 'Kittens' by the way, especially 'Blackey' are trying to get on top, stepping on the heads of the poor people who do all the work but never been appreciated... She is not more than an angel with a dirty face... I can't believe I have to face her in 2 major events... One down another to go..

The 'Cat' on the other hand, Uh...~ I don't know how to explain.. I guess due to aging factors, she is like a robot that need to reprogram... She's nagging about the same thing every moment, pushing us like we have all the time in world, acting like she have all the power to rule the world... She is a DICTATOR...!!!!!! Arrrrgh....~

....Untitled....

I'm just a HUMAN...
Human make MISTAKES...
All I can say is how SORRY I am for what I did to you..
If I have the power to UNDO everything, I WOULD..
But, I CAN'T.....
You never know how GUILTY I feel and sometimes I can't imagine living my life with this feeling everyday...
It's KILLING me...
I know you're gonna find out sooner or later..
I just don't have a GUT to tell you honestly...
I guess that makes me a COWARD...
I hope you will forgive me and I won't STOP you from HATING me because I DESERVE it and I really mean it..